My Mentor @ MingHup

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Say Cheeze !

The Trouble Makers..

Its been some time since we three went out together.

When i was out with my sis,

"sometimes" we are abit of trouble stirrer.

Haha.

Yet harmless.

Cuz things usually stir when someone intentionally step on us.

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What's more,

three of us were out together to town yesterday

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TROUBLE MAKERS

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We went for fabulous food..

while enjoying,

our conversation includes..

Guys!

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"well, guys are visual creature, isnt it?"

Alot more,

but guess i shouldnt elaborate our "biasness"

hehe

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Actually we weren't out to find trouble, we are only keen in enjoying ourselves..

Yet we are just protective of each others.

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Our temper almost burst when a dumb ass,

perhaps,

"unintentionally" & "unknowingly"

said unpleasant words.

Well, words out of her mouth is simply shit.

& we dun have to tolerate her nonsense.

After much "debate",

we wish her luck in

debating with her managment !

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Angry feeling make us hungry girls!

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After shopping & eating..

Woo..

off to pub.

Shiok..

Saw different kind of ppl..

but cant help but thinking,

all their mentality is the same..

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After drink,

its a spin!!

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Baby,

i miss U.

U were away.

But i kinda get used to it without u.

Perhaps

even with u around,

u didnt filled my emptiness.

So sad, but true.

Never let U go..

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The rain just never seems to bring the joy

I feel the same

everlasting pain of my loss remains

My heart can't seem to learn to part

the hole you left your mark

all that I dreamed of now it seems so stark

. Tho I told myself won't hold my breath

a part of me was dying

there is nothing left for me to do now

but give in
If you gave me one chance

to tell you how I was feeling

I would sing to you

and tell you

I won't live my life without you

If you gave me one chance

to tell you how I was feeling

I would hold your hand and look in your eyes

and you know

I'd never let you go

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The way you left me on the train

I don't know what to say

I remember everything that day

I can't believe we'd never dance

just need one more chance to share the sunset

our one last romance

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Tho I told myself won't hold my breath

a part of me was dying

there is nothing left for me to do now but give in

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If you gave me one chance

to tell you how I was feeling

I would sing to you and tell you

I won't live my life without you

.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling

I would hold your hand and look in your eyes

and you know

I'd never let you go

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姐妹情深

Thank God for making us Sisters.

Perhaps all that we went through make us closer lik what we are today.

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The Drunken Lady @ Blue Banana

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Say Cheeze..

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I remember we agreed to..

" all guys are of same kind,

Cheers!! ''

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High!!

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Beauty in it's Simplicity..

A Message from "U"

Hi ah **..
After reading your blog,
these something tat appear in my mind and so call the answer to your question but I myself dunno the answer till tat day come

A) What if on the shelf there is another product that suit mi moreWhat if I already had a family by that time?

B) What if this product already bought by other shopperWhat if u already married?

C) What if my feelin for tis product already expiryI love u but will u love me?Love need both hand to clapWith no love in return, soon the feeling will gone

D) How about I buy it now so that its forever minePossession dosent mean loveSometime seeing your love one happy tat enough

Sorry for being silly for coming out with e multiply choice
The choice can be from A to Z but it will never be an answer if we dont work it out

QNS: "How bout checking whether your feeling towards the product has an expiry, before U decide to buy it, so that it can forever be yours?"

ANS:
1) Your look and smile melt my heart (it is e same thing tat melt me six yr ago)

2) Simply irresistible

3) You keep appearing in my mind

4) Im jealous of you n him

5) I dont bear to see anyone hurting you

6) I dont bear to see you sad (it your smile tat melt mi not ur sadness)

7) I want to protect you

8) I can be what Im when I with you

9) I enjoy every meet up with you (simple yet sweet)

10) I want to be with you100)

QNS:
I hope you can help mi fill in the answer till 100).
I love you
Do you love me??

ANS :___________( Dont need to worry of hurting me or what)

How many of U actually see me for who I really am?

--*贝贝*--

Didnt wanna grieve about what has happen yesterday,

or

worry about what tomorrow may hold for us.

Just wanna make

TODAY

so beautiful

that it is worth remembering

for the rest our life.

Everyone seems so enthusiastic in marriage recently.

My uncle just gotten married

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On

28/09/2007

My cousin is getting married.

& my sister concluded that perhaps after him,

its my turn.

Could it be possible?

.

I want to.

Badly

But when can i FELT that there was someone whom i can rely to..

for my whole life?

its kinda hard

Cuz

Too used to depending on myself

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Moreover,

when can I trust that the one i wanna rely on for e rest of my life,

will love me endlessly?

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Society now,

is like an temptation island..

so how to cope with the uncertainty of human's faith?

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Can U bear the pain or consequences for any form of betrayal?

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Well, just needed to put a shield in front,

it cant prevent any injuries in the heart,

@ least, it minimises it.

--被宠坏了--

最近病倒了,

可能是太累了.

傻傻的以为忙碌就是充实.

忘了,

人不是铁打的, 却是很脆弱的.

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平时的我，

无奈的，非得自力更生不可，

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但

生病时的我,

只像个不会照顾自己的小孩

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这一次，

却感到很幸福.

身边有很多人关心我, 心疼我

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被捧在手心的呵护..

真让我受宠若惊..

．

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Well,

i needed you.

& you wasnt here

Pie.

Message & Calls are there..

but what's more important,

you wasnt.

Hearts are colder now,

but it didnt matters.

@ least

it wont hurt that much.

Not anymore.

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We chat like normal.

But in fact, we are nothing.

Never mind,

just leave it this way if U want it.

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U

always say i'm e one who give up & forget,

our love

Well,

I believe I've tried.

&

I Deserve A Better Treatment.

___________________________________________________________

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No matter what the future holds for us,

你是我最深爱的人

It's ok to kiss a fool,

It's ok to let a fool kiss you,

but never ever let a kiss fool you...

It's still best to wait for the one you want,than settle for the one available.

Best to wait for the one you love,than settle for one who's around.

Best to wait for the right one.

Life is short to waste on the wrong person...

It is better to meet the person who will truly love you later,

than meet someone now who promises to love you

but sooner or later leave you forever...

Never try to impress someone to make him or her fall in love with you,

If you do,

you will be expected to keep the standard

for the rest of your life...

Fate determines who comes into our lives.

The heart determines who stays...

The Hospital Window

Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room.

One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs. His bed was next to the room's only window.

The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.

The men talked for hours on end.

They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation.
Every afternoon when the man in the bed by the window could sit up,
he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.

The man in the other bed began to live for those one-hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside.
The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.

As the man by the window described all this in exquisite detail, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine the picturesque scene.

One warm afternoon the man by the window described a parade passing by.
Although the other man couldn't hear the band - he could see it.
In his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.

Days and weeks passed.
One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep.
She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.

As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.

Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside. He strained to slowly turn to look out the window beside the bed.

It faced a blank wall. The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window.

The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall.
She said, "Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you."


Epilogue:
There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations.
Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when shared, is doubled.
If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can't buy.
Today is a gift, that's why it is called the present.

姐妹情深

Chun and I are very closed.
Despite the fact that we didnt have much shared childhood, we have became closer as we grew.

Things I lose to her
She is ..
--someone who is very alert
whose mind can turn very swiftly, and answer anyone's question with absolute confident.

--a great talker
U cant win her once she speak.
Be it in sales or agrument..
Even if talking about life, i take my hat off her

--talented in singing
she is just born with it.

Things She Lose to me

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She is..

--soft-hearted.

Something that i really lack of.. and she is full of.

She forgives easily.

Something in common

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We..

--Loves being ourselves.

Dont like the idea of pretending to be someone we are not.

We are not those gentle type of girls who speaks softly,

we are loud.

--strong in character

Dont like the idea of others stepping over our head,

it even means to the boss.

Rather lose the job,

than to lose in an agrument in which we are right.

Our Principle.

--relationship made us weaker

Only know how to give,

for the benefit of the other party.

Yet completely forgetting our own.

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Time together is always full of fun.

@ least better than with those guys around.

We can laugh for no apparent reason.

Talk about everything, even life & death.

Sometimes by eye contact,

we read each others' mind..

without asking why.

Thats what made us 'SISTER'

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God,

Please bless her with abundent happiness

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I just wished U were here with me.

I miss you darling.

Today U said to me..

"some day or some how I will suddenly appear at yr front without u notice de.."

Do U mean it or say for the sake of it?

I dont know what we are now..

But at least,

not a stranger.

Cant seems to love you in your presence,
it hurts.

Even though the pain without U doesnt seems to heal,
I have learn to love U differently.

Even if its just messages, calls or just in my heart..

I love you the same.

Loving in a way that doesnt need any form of possession.

Satisfied already.

Well,

Maybe one fine day,
I would be able to see U.

I am waiting to see U.
Even if it is for the last time..

While waiting for U my dear..

I got more time to nurture myself..

into a better me.

Hope U are nurturing yourself either.

God Bless.

--IS IT A POINT OF NO RETURN?--

Both of us tried.. So hard that caused a complete breakdown.
I couldnt say its your fault or mine. Both contribute to it. Things were no longer the same as it used to be. When jokes werent seen as a joke anymore. All I know is that tolerances is at the lowest point, and there is no more giving again.

I couldnt wait anymore. All i wanted badly is to see you, and because U couldnt take my joke. You left me lost with your hurting words. Perhaps I never really understand you at all.
You need something called TIME, yet I could not afford to give you anymore. Waiting time is terrible.. Yet, U told me its my business.


Looking back,
you are the first that kept my stubbornness away..
Despite tears, pains were forgotten easily with your sweetie smile. Your temper strike like a lightning.. & for someone like me who couldnt handle it fast, often get caught in between your frustration for no apparent reason. But I know you didnt mean it when u tried to make me smile. Whatever it might be.. I Love You. For your everything.

I thought we are already alright.
Failing to realise that now is still the sensitive period. Well, isnt love also means endless forgiving? Or in reality, U are already being brainwashed by your 'bro', who was more significant than me to you.

Sadly, when exhaustion couldnt get in touch with communication. Fire meets fire.
U think i have changed. But in actual fact, i also have my own temper.
But I kept it away.. Simple reason, I want to be your wonderful Bei.. That was why i never did lose my temper on you. Never.

Not a Superwoman.
Sorry.. because I couldnt give you any more of my best understanding.
I was more to fragile than independent. Alot of time, I just hope you will be there when i breakdown.. Hopes are hopes.
Now, I could no longer hold you in my arms, could no longer tell you that you actually meant the world to me. I could never find you beside me when i wake up in the morning.. unable to kiss and hug you whenever things goes wrong.

Alot of bitter hate & pain in us. I couldnt give what you want anymore. All I can is to wish you the best in finding your perfect happiness.

--Darling--

when i said its the last SMS i will send to you.. i mean it.

Please dont test my patience, for its totally gone after today..

Your pain didnt add joy to my life.

At least i know your welfare means so much more

than mine.

I thought you know me well enough that i love you so deep so true..

and would never do anything that could break your heart.
Yet to you, I am someone heartless enough to smile at your pain.

Arent you the heartless one?

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Today,

30 June 2007

..

in your hurting words..
you said no matter how much u miss me, how much u love me, or how much you need me..

you will NEVER do anything to hold our relationship back anymore..

not anymore.

Well, this is enough to break my heart.. break our love.. break all the promises made.
..
My heart shattered into pieces. But I never want it to be amended.

Its your 9 Months Appreciation.

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Leave it the way you left it.
..

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So For Me..
Doesnt matter how much i miss you, love you or need you badly by my side..

or even if the whole world turns me away..

I will hold on with all my own might..

and I will never ask you back... never ask for your return.

If cutting my flesh apart would just stop me from giving you any reply,

I Will.

For, you've crushed me badly with all your might.

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Congrats, you succeed.

--Bei--

--小Pie & 小Puff--

Was kinda smiling to myself when I received his SMS this morning.
The cutie him is back.

"If everything heals le u will still be with me?" --10.35am--

If there's a chance of course i wish to..
I still love you the most.. Second is patrick le.. Haha

"R u sure wif it? U still wan's to be my creamy puff? Be my personal maria? Hehe..." --10.56am--

To be your sweetie puff .. Yes.
But to be ur personal maria.. No.

"R u very sure u don wan it? 1 count 2 count 3... Still wan it?" --10.59am--

Negotiable?

"No tis u can't choose de Haha.. U have to stick to it le.." --11.12am--

Wa.. even work can choose position le....

"No don care tis issue its not able to negotiate anymore.. Chop.. Its being confirm le.." --11.20am--

How nice,

if love can forever be so sweet even without any 'cracks' in between.

-- At least time wouldn't need to be spent on its healing.

Thank you for being there still, & for not running away from me.--

...maybe this is how A PERFECT LOVE is slowly moulded into...

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Reflection..

Did we often take people around us for granted? Thinking that they will always be there.

Human are only human.

Sadly,

They might be gone by the time u realised U broke their heart, just by failing to cherish them.

No one waits forever.

Therefore,
Appreciate every little thing they do just to bring a little smile on your face.

Cuz to them, it might means the world.

**If You Are Given A Second Chance..

YOU ARE BLESSED.**

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Dont feel embarrass to say I LOVE YOU to your love one

Truthfully, that's where the strenghth came from.

Piepie, U know e reason why i always say,

"Darling 我最爱你了, 你爱我吗?''

..

Well.. its silly. But i need you to give me some strength..

..

Ending Conversation..

My little Pie wanna rest liao..

Byebye

"Wat byebye y no Muack Muack de? --11.40am--

" Ok Nvm... Tonight sleep balcony..."

--11.45am--

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---Hahaha.. Dat's My Sweetie Pie..

& now i know how u added colour into my life..---

**Remember we wanted to walk together?**

*Men,
what are your mentality?
Some hints just couldnt be understood by Women. That's why we are from different planet. So please, be more specific in it. *

A Clearer Understanding of What is LOVE..

If you love some one because

you think that he or she is really gorgeous...

then it's not love..

it's ~ Infatuation ~

If you love some one because

you think that you shouldn't leave him because others think that you shouldn't,

then it's not love..

it's ~ compromise ~

If you love some one because

you think that you cannot live with out his touch..

then it's not love ..

it's ~lust~

If you love some one because

you have been kissed by him..

then it's not love..

it's ~ inferiority complex~

If you love some one because

you cannot leave him thinking that it would hurt his feelings..

then it's not love..

it's ~charity~

If you love some one because

you share every thing with him..

then it's not love..

it's ~friendship~

but if

you feel the pain of the other person more than him

even when he is stable and you cry for him...

that's ~LOVE~

if you get attracted to there people but stay with him without any regrets..

that's ~LOVE~

If you let him go knowing that he has to go but he doesn't want to ...

that's ~LOVE~

Lord,

make me an instrument of Thy peace.

Where there is injury,

Pardon;

Where there is doubt,

Faith;
Where there is despair,

Hope;

Where there is darkness,

Light;

Where there is saddness,

Joy.

O Divine Master,

grant that i may not so much seek

To be console as to console, To be understand as to understand.

To be loved as to love.

For it is in giving that we received,

It is in pardoning that we are pardoned.

It is in dying that we are born to eternal life.

-- at times when i am losing hope,

and when everything seems so wrong..

God,thanks for standing by me,

so that despair wasnt able to take me over.--

*-Reflection-*

Some people who see me, felt that i am a self destroying girl.
I used to be, perhaps because i felt that mentally pain is far more torturing than physcial pain.

Few years ago, after the pain J***** left for me, when there was only emptiness, God brings me through. That was when I stopped those cutting.. stopped those destroying.


Unexpectedly, interest in tattoos grew in me.

I wasnt even 16 at e moment, i must have caused my love one much disappointment. For them is a sign of rebellious. But to me, its really & simply ARTS.

Didnt meant to cause the disappointment.
Frequent years has taught me how to ignore those whispers behind me, even though there are frustration sometime.


Still, my temptation towards tattoo will never be resisted.

I just knew that i lived only once, and decide how i want my life is to be led.. I dont want to live my life up to people's expectation, their hope, their wish.. because as time goes, i will only felt exhausted and meaningless.



**Dream what U wanna dream, go where U wanna go, be what U wanna be, because U have only one life and one chance to do all the things U wanna do.**







Please see me inside for who i really am.

--Dont judge people, if you do, you'll have no time to love them--