Julian : 26 Feb 2003

I do not believe in love at first sight, but Julian changed my opinion towards this saying..

Well, I fell for him even before i knew him.. Everytime he walked pass my class, i just couldnt take my eyes off him. Perhaps that's what my friend called me "infatuation".

I dunno how he felt about me. Through friends, we knew each other.

Time together were simple.. but it was a great joy to me. Julian has e sweetest smile i ever seen. i fell deeper.

26 February-- We were an item.

My misses for Julian extended until my school table, where an obvious 'i love you Ju2' can be seen. Unexpectedly, i saw a reply from him saying "i love you 2." I was over e moon to discover that it was indeed from him. He was my sweet dearie.

He made me discover the beauty of tribal.

Honeymoon Ended..

Facts are cruel. The fact that we have nothing in common cannot be denied.

Out of the blue, he went Missing In Action for 3days. I was utterly disappointed. All i felt was just emptiness. Luckily, hope wasnt lost, my SMS was still there, and love was still there, just that there was no reply to this.

He was back 3days later. He told me he hope we can do something to be in a part of each others' life.. that's something i will never forget. I didnt blamed him, cuz he told me he was confused. For me, i was more than willing to be part of his life.

He left.

I couldnt understand and didnt wish too. But I thought we agreed to be part of each other? I have love blindly without seeing the route ahead. Silly me, perhaps it takes time to wake up. Intentionally made myself exhausted, hoping the pain will subsided.

I moved on. I felt that i will never be able to love again.

***When the door of happiness closes, another opens; but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one,which has been opened for us.*** Look Ahead.